Midweek limbo

Hmm,

Having a pants day really, no explicable reason for this state of affairs... Paranoia becomes a dangerous new friend and all things tangible and infinite take on a slightly hollower feel that resemble a crisp morning where the dew on the ground quickly turns into a slick of mud..

Frustration is the palpable by-product of having just a plain shit day as it stems from the predictable position that one finds themselves in...moaning at yourself because you've got alot to be grateful for and wanting to say "fuck that" life is my party and ill cry if i want to but later choking on your own sensibilities like a hen eating an iron - glunk!

So had an okay weekend, Helen left after farewell dinner which had all the confetti, bad language, parafanalia that a leaving thing should have, i think that a three course meal was very much appreciated by rats and friends many of whom were hungover including me after yes..you've guessed it.. a whisky and wine binge the night before, unplanned as it was but Helsie had the final say on that (unsurprisngly)

Also fit in a visit to my dear niece Maya's first birthday back in Southampton, saw many old friends inlcuding spiky haired Pascal, sisters Lilah and Becky and Khalid who seems to have stolen my librarian with an edge fashion look for his own..

I realise that i've never mentioned my family much on here... Thats not very nice of me i don't think, i don't mean to say that im going to start a regular feature on any of them but i could make this blog a little more informative..Maybe this diary needs a re-think...maybe i've got too much time on my hands as there is simply nothing to do at work today..still, id like to be a nicer person though.

So here i stand rooted to the centre of the week, the centre of the week blues are really strong and the feeling of limbo is palpable, maybe tonights cinema visit will clear these feelings but i don't know..meh!

I hate shit days that have no reason to be shit....